Wednesday, April 30, 2008
I feel so freaking sick right now ! And finally, i've planned to see a doctor. I really do hate seeing doctors but i've got no choice. I need Mc and need to get well soon ! As i wanna drink on Saturday ? So hopefully i'll get well real soon. And i meant real soon.Sms boy yesterday no reply so i'll just take it as he still needs time ? I really don't know what to do. I'm so freaking sick and yet my mind are filled with him. I'm such a fool.
I feel so bad when i know that aamie is sick too. Cause i was the one who spread it to her. Now she's having a real bad flu just like me. Hopefully she feels fine after seeing the doctor. Girl, i'm sorry for making you sick. I feel so guilty.
Woke up in the morning and found myself in tears. Can't stop crying cause of what i've dreamt. It seems so real that i find it hard to face it. If it's real, what am i suppose to do ? How am i gonna face the fact? I hate it when this happens. It happens once in the past and finally i'm able to move on and now it comes back. Sigh ! Guess this is life. It's so hard for me to face the facts. Thinking of it, i wonder how long will i be able to get over it. This time it feels like the past. So much alike. What will happen if i breakdown once more ? I really can't take it any longer. How i wish i could hate you right now for making me feel so down !
What hurts the most ?
Knowing that you've left me all by my own when you say you won't leave me .
You know, it's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go and i find it hard for me to put on a fake smile in front of everyone. You left me unspoken. ))':
2:19 pm